A visit to our GPMay 29, 2009
My Neuro-Oncologist ordered me to have my blood pressure measured by my GP (General Practitioner or “huisarts” in Dutch). My blood pressure is too high and Monling’s blood pressure is sometimes too low. So Monling made an appointment with this GP (who is a very nice guy by the way). He checked our blood pressures and they were fine. Very strange. Monling asked for a prescription for sleeping pills for me but I think she needs them more than me. The poor lass has been ‘on duty’ 24×7 for more than one year now. She is often too tired to sleep without sleeping pills.
I almost wish to die to make things easier for her but since that’s too early, I’m keep myself busy with cleaning up my (study) books, music CD’s, my computers, my electronic parts, PC boards, my tool chest and other bits and bobs. I had already discussed euthanasia and palliative sedation with my GP (and Psychotherapist of the RCA) and at that he offered me to help me sorting out things. I have not done anything yet although there are some plans in my mind. I’m starting to get ready to define in which way I want to go. I hope everything will go the way I like it. I wish I could be a spider on the wall during my own funeral :-).